SHE
Aries. 22yrs. NP grad. Rugby,
Tennis, Running, (Sports).
Tempermental. Silly. Sensitive.
Loves Chocolate. My Friends.
Music. Hates Liars & Laziness
MOOD of da DAY:
CARES.
HATES.
MOOD.
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
:: Wednesday, 16 March, 2005 ::
Why do i have to go through this over and over again.
Can't i just let it go?
I can't....i won't....
How am i to cope...i can't imagine it...
I'm tired of tackling the woes alone...
he's always at lost at what to do...
and he doesn't show any signs of anxiety to solve our probs...
everytime he calls he's ready to doze off in a second's time...
how are we able to carry on by communicating this way?
The pain grows in me each time.
It's a terrible communication break down..
and the pain grows in me every time..
i've to endure it and sleep with a heavy heart every night..
when i wake up..the pain ceases..i start hoping again.
This time round, i left a long sms.
Telling him that i'll understand if he chooses to be alone.
Man.
You can't give 'em too much space nor too little.
I used to think that i was asking too much.
Till i realised, it's not working both ways.
He doesn't seem to need me.
"Seem"
I'm using it so often that everything's like a myth to me.
He's not talking nor showing or sharing.
I've too judge for myself.
And it has always been "seems".
I feel like a total fool all the time.
With much reluctance, i've tried to get close in letting it all go.
Can't do it.
I can't.
The pain stabs so streakingly at the very thought of it.
It's not as simple as it seems.
Lúthien Ancalime ;
3/16/2005 11:11:00 PM
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