SHE
Aries. 22yrs. NP grad. Rugby,
Tennis, Running, (Sports).
Tempermental. Silly. Sensitive.
Loves Chocolate. My Friends.
Music. Hates Liars & Laziness
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CARES.
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MOOD.
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Been the earliest so far.
Probably it's the sleep, cos i'm feeling goggy right now.
A solid 11 hours of sleep, i've broken my own record.
Sometimes, i just refuse to call it a day and hit the bed.
It just doesn't dawn upon me that i HAVE to sleep, and i don't want to.
I missed my rugby training last night. Again.
Feeling listless and drowsy the whole of yesterday.
And i can't make out exactly what really happened the night before.
In fact, alot DID happen, and i just wasn't in the right state to handle it.
It's like i've been waiting for this big final day, and it's over with a just a blow at a lighted candle.
Fitted myself quite comfortably beside Hus, while he talked to his friends.
It was a gathering-of-some-sort, and he introduced two of his good friends who just got back from Canada.
Ky was there. Nothing unusual. It's good enough to just say "hi".
With a spread of drinks laying before your eyes, and Hus entertaining his friends, I'm sitting fiddling with my handphone, i think it's only wise to pick up a bottle and start drinking.
One led to two and many more.
I had a treat from the next table, for picking up his visa card as he dropped it unknowingly at the bottom of his seat.
A friendly gesture i might say.
Had two coloured shots, i had green first then an orange.
Orange tasted like cough medicine. YUCKS!
I admit, i was gone by the time i've had my drinks.
Quite wasted. Drunk.
Feeling rather ashamed, i'm not proud of it at all.
Utterly disgusted with myself, i couldn't walk upright and straight.
I knew i was swaying, i tried so hard to stay focus.
Literally, i just gave up. 'Cos i know Hus will take good care of me.
He's always been there whenever i drink.
And he said he'll catch me if i fall.
We went up to Phuture to look for my cousin.
Win and Hus met before and even introduced themselves.
I never wanna get caught in such an awkward situation.
Makes me shudder and wonder why.
I couldn't care less once i reached my cousin at the dance floor.
I had Hus. It's all that matters.
When Hus said he had to go, cos he's got work the next day.
That's where i started getting disillusioned and feeling dejected.
Shaking my head. Just kept shaking my head.
Know what? I should have left with him when he asked.
Urgh! Why couldn't i even think then?
Once he left, too many things have happened.
Friggin' Win flashed his middle-finger at me.
Got me so pissed having to withstand all the nonsense, i detached myself from the group and headed down to zouk finding another friend.
It got better, apparently being fumed up in the head makes you feel alot more sober.
He apologised after and again, blaming it on the alcohol.
Tsk tsk...excuses excuses.
Sigh.
It's been a day, and i've yet to keep in touch with Hus.
Undeniably, i miss him very much.
Feeling attached but then again not.
Mentally reminding myself that he's leaving on Aug 4.
He'll only be back again at the end of the year.
Long distance relationship is a risk factor.
Either it makes the heart grows fonder or yonder.
I hate playing by the rules in the affairs of the heart.
Drastically, i'll always head in first with my emotions and getting slap back doubly hard.
I have learnt my lessons, never NEVER never succumb to my rashness.
Right now, i shall just leave it all by itself.
Shall go get changed and run.
My remedy.
7/07/2006 10:41:00 AM
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Groove it.
Ah so random! heh! Anyway......
Just finished a pack of mocha flavoured Daisy low-fat milk.
Not exceptionally nice. But it's still milk.
My knees' been aching recently.
Thus i'm back to the routine of popping glucosamine and drinking milk.
It is suppose to be consumed on a long time bases, but i'm just so lazy and undisciplined.
Life's been good recently.
Putting a stop to all the bitchin' and whinning..blah blah blah...
Everything just happens for a reason.
You've have showed me the light at the darkest point of my life.
I'm grateful to many who have been there with me, grew with me.
Making me feel the most fortunate and contented.
Here's a summary of updates of what's been going on for the past few days.
I didn't turn up for training on saturday 'cos i chose to attend my cousin's 25th birthday lunch.
Darn, that reminds me that i hadn't even got her a present yet!
Simply i have no idea what to get for her 'cos SHE practically has everything! Sigh!
Went on a 2 hours shopping trip right after, just my cousins,
brother and i.
FIVE of us. From toddlers till we're fully grown adults.
We've always been this close, such a close knitted kinship, it's a blessing. I love 'em so much.
And i'm waiting for the photos we took, so that i can pin them up!
I missed the the match between England and Portugal.
Am disappointed England has to go. Oh well...
Sunday was Lion Reds touch carnival.
To my amazement, i did pretty well!
THough i kinda screw up my very first match, losing it there on the field.
Getting yelled and screwed on and outta field.
I bucked up on the match against NP.
GOod! That should be me on the field.
Calling for the shots, aggressive and all pumped up ready to go!
All red and tanned from the scorching sun.
A pity he didn't come. Blah.
But!
We went for a movie. Havoc.
It's something different from your usual form of an american movie.
sexual explicits, reality, exploring the depths of ones own desires.
Straight after we had supper at Newton.
He said Ky told him stuff.
My ears perked up. Eyes widen.
Okay..doesn't sound very good to me.
*shrugs...i have made my choice. And i've never felt this good and proud of myself to have come to a decision after giving it this much of thought.
We all have our own perspectives.
Though, there are definitely scars that haunts you for the rest of your life, i choose to learn my mistakes and battle for my very own happiness.
Nobody knows what's gonna happen in the next 4 years,
but this much i know for it's the quality of time not the quantity.
I know it's true, because i've been there and done it.
I'm no saint, just imperfect.
Yesterday was messy.
Xia can be such an ass with her last min plans and all.
Plans were crappy, but at the end of the day, everything just turned out fine.
Finally, got my timesheet signed. Met all my favourite people.
I miss working with you peeps.
Best of all, i got a new top that cost like $23 bucks after a 20% off!
I got Hus to check it out before i cashed it.
He gave me the thumbs up and i'm gonna wear it to Phuture tomorrow!
I'm dreaming of being twirled round and round on the dance floor already!
*sheesh*
Then, we watched Just My Luck.
Not too bad, you're get the kick outta all the funny antics.
Hus was like grabbing my hands, arms and legs with all the excitment.
He's such a silly baby when he gets all boyish and thrilled.
can't wait till we take more pics.
The last time....
erm...wasn't really very nice...resolution so high that i could count the beads of sweat forming on our foreheads. Not mentioning my pimples..
HAHahhaha....
7/04/2006 04:38:00 PM
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Sunday, July 02, 2006
This kinda insecurity. Such unstablility.
What a dork i am.
Had it coming. I should have seen it coming.
Who am i kidding.
Can't ask for too much can i?
Why can't i just say it that i want him to come watch my match?
It's scary. I can't even make the heads and tails of my feelings and my choices.
I think my self esteem has took a plunge.
Every single bit of it seems like an issue.
I don't trust myself anymore. And so who am i to have faith in.
So tensed up with all the unnecesssary.
I've lost sleep. And i want it back to gear up for tomorrow's match.
Keep living...life's never a bed of roses....
7/02/2006 01:12:00 AM
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