SHE
Aries. 22yrs. NP grad. Rugby,
Tennis, Running, (Sports).
Tempermental. Silly. Sensitive.
Loves Chocolate. My Friends.
Music. Hates Liars & Laziness
MOOD of da DAY:
CARES.
HATES.
MOOD.
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Lúthien Ancalime ;
I can feel my woes blowing away gradually... Lúthien Ancalime ;
Seriously, i had so much going on these days that i just can't really make out what's in for my birthday this year.
Giving myself a wry smile.
Don't get me wrong, i had too many good times to speak of too.
I couldn't have live without my family, cousins and friends.
They just make it a whole lot easier to make my life feel complete and filled.
It's just one thing that's amiss.
My relationship is a screw.
I hate waking up every morning since the day, remembering i've had no one.
Not you, not him.
We ain't together, yet we are.
Nothing has changed, except for the love shared between us.
Good friends? How's that possible in this case?
Good friends don't do couple things, not us.
Even a slight touch makes me flinch.
You are one piece of heartless creature that has torn my heart into pieces.
And, yet...i love you...
I'm stronger now, seeking undivided attention from you ain't me anymore.
"What has he done to you! I'm damn pissed!" Xia spitting.
YOu've made me stronger. Strong enough to hold my tears.
The world doesn't revolve us or me alone.
So i've learnt, to handle my emotions myself.
I won't pin on having you around drying up those tears that falls within.
I've seen the obvious effort there, right on my birthday.
And, neitherless you've made it more confusing sending reals of thoughts spinning in my mind.
You said to start afresh, letting nature takes its course...
You spent the whole night with me till my birthday day.
With such luck, we actually sat on a table 14 unknowingly.
(secretly, i hope you still keep the receipt)
But, to actually behave ignorantly towards me.
(I bet you don't really know what you want and i felt foolish.)
Spilling the tears in your embrace when we parted ways.
You blew a kiss before you drove away.(i felt loved.)
14 April 2006.
Tennis in the morning with my cousins.
Everything seemed cool.
And it rained.
On my freaking birthday? You gotta be kidding.
Pouring like it'll never stop.
Spent my whole afternoon hanging around with my cousins.
And of cos, an afternoon treat at coffee club.
Looking around the table, i felt different.
Maybe i was wrong, birthday wasn't that bad afterall.
And....that's when things starts getting alittle tricky.
Wishing deep down in my heart that he could make it for dinner.
He did. Really did.
Was it cos you couldn't bear to spoil it for me?
He came and fetch my parents.
Brought us out for dinner....made my parents happy....very...
And i grimace inside. Mum..dad..you had no idea how much i went through to make it this far to my birthday.
Back at home, i was surprised with a birthday cake which i never knew it could be from you.
You've had it all planned out so well, that it sent thrills of amazement in me.
I couldn't have imagine all the stupid things we've done.
Guessing games, arm wrestling (i'm strong!)...
....and....i'm bruised!
Clinging onto the last bit of my faith.....
4/15/2006 11:44:00 AM
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Today's wednesday!
Got home from coaching and school.
Tiring...coaching is so tiring...i think i perspire more than the kids.
About last night? I'm totally over the moon and stars.
Jason added 3 pairs of Havianas World Cup to my first 2 pairs.
It just lifted my spirit to happiness.
It cost totally like a bomb, not mentioning he ended paying for the drinks as well.
Liquid Kitchen's new branch's so near home.
Like about 100m walk away?
I met my babe, Sau.
She's the honey.
I love ya babe sooOO much. =hugs=
I'm glad her exams are over, and we can date again!
Ops, just alittle sorry that i was tipsy. But very happy.
Elemeno P - You Are
"You are, my shining star, my cavier, you are, you are my tonic lets get on it lady!"
Difting in and out of my sleep, dreaming about my havianas and coaching.
I woke up at his call.
He still calls...at least.
I took time off. Took my mind off.
Off from you. I've felt disheartened enough.
I don't wanna get dragged down with it further.
It makes my life miserable.
I don't wanna love somebody and get punished for it.
Going gym now.
4/12/2006 06:21:00 PM
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