Life of An Angel

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Waking at 11.30am this morning, meant that i had a total of six hours of sleep last night.
Out of the norm, i actually walked all the way down to the stretch of eateries and bought myself teh bing and two baos.
Paid a sum of three months phone bill before they actually would suspend my line.
A piece of great news, informing that First Toa Payoh Pri (FTPP) resumes coaching tomorrow.
It has been a long time, the coaching sessions have been dragging and delayed.
I'm still waiting for my pay from RGPS.
SRU is taking ages...far too long to consolidate the fees.
Rushed down PS in a cab to meet Xia for movie.
Pirates of The Carribean.
Movie tickets sold out, so we all settled for the 5.20pm slot.
Time's not to be wasted, so we did shopping, while Corne and Eric kept themselves busy at the arcade, where they eventually lost to a kid.
Bah. So lame.
Movie was really really good.
Though the plot seemed kind of scattered and incomplete.
Johnny Depp. He's the man.
Got myself a pair of U.R.S flats from Paragon which i badly needed cos my heels were killing me.
Had dinner at Fat East, then after Xia's good friend, Tricia came by and picked all of us up
I took the ride on Eric's bike.
My first offcial bowling session at Marina South.
I thought i really sucked, but i did alot better than i thought.
Loser punch. That's to Corne and Eric.
HAhhahaaa....they punched both games.
I had to team up with Xia cos i was supposedly the newbie.
With our combined scores, we topped the game.
In the midst, she flashed her handphone at me.
Coffee with Ky tomorrow, ahem which is aparrently today since it's like past midnight.
I said no, i'm busy and i don't wish to go with her.
Some things just simply can't be expressed in words, perhaps it's best left unspoken.
Nobody truely understands the kind of agony i'm going through right now.
Neither do i, myself, fully grasp the whole entire picture.
Basically, i just wanna stay clear, out of the way.
Pride's bruised. Confidence's battered.
Not mentioning feeling's hurt, hope's dead, faith's gone.
So please, leave me alone.

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7/13/2006 01:30:00 AM Comment

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

It feels like i just got whacked in the face.
It's humiliating and a let down.
Me? It's me again? WHy me?
I never knew liking someone more than yourself is a crime.
Playing it cool, playing it by the rules, is it how the dating game works?
If so, i don't think i belong here then.
I never regretted what i've done.
Though there were some wrong doings which i personally feel that i wished it never happened.
Okay, it's worst than how it seems.
Needless to say the amount of disappointment came crashing down.
What is the world out there all about?
My life, i had enough.
I wanna clean out everything, just like flipping a thrash bin over and emptying all the junk out of it.
Battered and bruised.
Had a long talk with Xia.
Looking at the whole picture differently and clearly.
Thank you kwee...thank you Xia....
All the emotional support, love and concern from my friends means so much.
Priceless.
And to you, thank you, cos i realised i love my piano very much..still...
I'm glad i didn't let my parents sell it away.

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7/12/2006 03:59:00 AM Comment

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

World Cup Finals!
Italy WON!
It's quite likely to be expected, however can't imagine Italy's luck in winning.
Zidane got the red card, that's probably the reason why.
I didn't really catch the whole final match, needless to say penalty kicks.
It's just for the company and atmosphere.
The entire opened area of Chjimes was neitherless dominated by France.
The crowd was awesome and overwhelming.
And Xia was like drawing France flags all over as she screams "ITALY!"
Guffaw.
Eventually i just surrendered to the air con right back in the pub where Kwee and i had a table by ourselves.
Some taiwanese came and shared the table.
One of them happened to be Kwee's really really old senior back in ACS barker.
Seven years.
He was complaining we drank too slow.
Treated us beer and food.

Drank myself silly. And i puked for the first time!
Urgh! Right outside my house door!
Got scolded by my mum who got my maid to clean up the mess.
Tsk tsk..not good.
Bad hangover in the earlier part of my day and i went to school at 7pm.
Might as well not waste the MC for not working.
First lesson at the Sports Medicine Lab at Kallang Stadium.
Feels good seeing all my classmates again, especially the same old gang.
And i really miss them alot.
I made it to Blacks training on last Saturday.
I've been missing it so often for whatever reason i have, all the procrastination and avoiding responsibility plus commitment.
Time to really grill on my discipline and train hard for NTL.
Cherry and i met up with the rest at Muddy Murphy's after that for the game of All Blacks vs Wallabies.

Good match. Exciting.
Went for a short window shopping trip before i met my parents for our usual Saturday family dinner.
On the other side....
It seems as though hope's bleek, and dreams don't come true.
Is this some kind of another "catch me if you can" game?
Utterly disgusting. I'm just left with me and myself, again.
Sometimes all you need is just that someone to look twice in your way, and everything would seem right again.
It's not alot to ask for isn't it?
Maybe it's just my thoughts running wild and emotions hanging by the edge.
Feels such a loser when it comes to this.
I can't handle them right.
So i have been advised, "When you feel something's wrong, let it go immediately."
Okay. I'll do that. Thank you very much.

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7/11/2006 11:30:00 AM Comment