Life of An Angel

Sunday, January 15, 2006

I never thought it'll be that difficult.
Without you around, everything seems meaningless.
You may be hidding that triumph smile right now.
No..you got me wrong..i don't look upon you as such person with a bad heart.
In fact, you seem much more important to me than anything else.
You've been gone for 3 days. And 2 more weeks to go.
You dropped me just right before you left.
I shouldn't even expect you to be reaching out for me again.
I've only the photos and memories to live on.
To dream on.
The way you held my face, drying streams of tears.
Telling me not to cry and everything's gonna be okay.
Pulling me up close to you, wrapping me up with tight hugs which you never did.
I felt loved again.
I saw hope. Perhaps, we were both wrong.
Right after, i'm confused.
How could you...
Ever bear to make me go through this ordeal alone.

I've fallen ill.
I'm only glad that at least my family's there for me.
They'll never leave you in the lurch no matter what.
Because, we're a family.
Friday at work was terrible.
Not only was i stucked in the store packing stocks,
I had to deal with my failing health.
Couldn't bear with the giddiness and killing sore throat,
I asked for early dismissal from work.
Straight after, i went Town to look for my parents.
I needed to find them...see them...i felt lost and helpless...
And, i realised what meant most to me...my family...not you.

I miss you wherever you've gone.
I really do.
I did something really silly.
I called you with the knowledge that you won't be able to receive it.
It got through and rang.
I hung up immediately.
Feeling my heart racing.
It doesn't make sense if you've brought your handphone.
Unless you've applied for roaming, which i doubt so.
Or perhaps you've diverted all calls, since it doesn't make a difference.
I've tried to figure.
But i stopped pondering.
'Cos even if you ever did pick up, i'll do the same...still...
I'll hang up.

Lúthien Ancalime ;
1/15/2006 01:26:00 AM Comment