SHE
Aries. 22yrs. NP grad. Rugby,
Tennis, Running, (Sports).
Tempermental. Silly. Sensitive.
Loves Chocolate. My Friends.
Music. Hates Liars & Laziness
MOOD of da DAY:
CARES.
HATES.
MOOD.
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Lúthien Ancalime ;
Lúthien Ancalime ;
Grabbed blindly for my handphone.
4 messages received.
A string of emotional confessions.
Then after, drifted back to sleep.
Wide awake at 10am.
I read 'em all over again. Just fearing that i might miss out something.
It's like an overhauled sense of exhaustion.
Couldn't seem to recall what happened exactly,
big thank you to my sleep.
Guess i know why some people just end up sleeping off on their problems.
Taking everything a step at a time 'cos just couldn't be bothered clamming my mind with all the paranoia and worries.
Never expected him to surprise me at my door.
Hearing the doorbell rang, my heart raced.
He took off for the afternoon from camp.
Armed with a mini cheesecake and a big smile.
My heart just melted. Anger ceased.
Ultimately, it just boils down to two things:
Love and Care.
It's undeniable that he was a jerk, he didn't seem to care.
And it hurts..like crazy...
Perhaps...there isn't enough love.
Probably...he doesn't love me that much to care.
Things like that just drives me up the wall.
Stupid things that i succumb to.
Silly things that i do.
I'm afraid.
As what it's been said, love them more..they'll slip away.
Love them lesser..they just keep coming back.
School starts officially tomorrow.
Boy..am i looking forward to it.
A new start in life.
A new beginning....
3/10/2006 12:49:00 AM
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
We've had so much good times,
that i've almost forgotten the bad ones too.
However, there are some vivid ones which still remains.
And. Today...it's one....
Never knew he could be like this.
It's totally ridiculous.
Why is it that he can behaved so sensitively to minor details.
Yet a jerk when it's a major one.
I'm heartbroken.
Seriously, am i not worth coming after for?
He just turned and walked.
Standing there, i felt like thrash.
Utterly.
I spurned around and walked the other way.
And, from Newton Circus all the way till Coronation Plaza.
How far is that?
I've no idea, boarded a bus only when my legs couldn't carry.
For behaving like a spoiled brat, i'm sorry.
I thought you care...and alot too.
My mum spoiled my evening over some stupid shit.
I thought seeing you would make me whole again.
How unfortunately, you didn't seem to care.
Let alone comfort.
From the very second we both parted,
not a call or message from ya.
I've realised your pride seems to matter more than me.
And i hate it that all these heartache is causing alot of pain to me.
Emotionally and physically.
Gastric starts.
Head starts to pound.
Insomina.
Feeling so unloved and disappointed to the core.
Seizing myself up that i won't be bothered when i wake up.
And i won't give in till i'm treated right.
And i won't regret it.
Trust me.
On the reversed.....
Started my day the perfect way.
Met Metta for lunch. Been ages since i last saw her or even worked with her.
She's such a sweetheart.
She gave me a little prezzie from Percious Moments with my initial.
Awww....my favourite collection..deserves a zillion hugs from me.
3/09/2006 01:22:00 AM
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