SHE
Aries. 22yrs. NP grad. Rugby,
Tennis, Running, (Sports).
Tempermental. Silly. Sensitive.
Loves Chocolate. My Friends.
Music. Hates Liars & Laziness
MOOD of da DAY:
CARES.
HATES.
MOOD.
get from unkymoods
Lúthien Ancalime ;
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause you're only almost here" - Delta Goodrem - Almost Here
There are times when i stood there in silence.
Thinking about what i would have done if i were to go back in time.
To realise that it can't be undone.
The pain sinks lower and deeper within.
hiding well and good.
Each time i take a bus, i choose a window seat.
Glazing out. Staring blankly. And my mind whirling.
My ears plugged with my choice of songs.
Engrossed.
It's been close to a month since i've stepped out into the open alone.
Used to feel inferior.
Now, everything's a blur.
Nothing seems to matter anymore.
Tennis consecutively.
Running consistently.
Studying occasionally.
Working minimal.
Coaching weekly.
Shopping oftenly.
Talk abt shopping...i bought stuff.
A top from TOPSHOP.
And an Adidas Originals jacket.
PSssttt...i love it! Haaahaaa....
I'm nice, cos i bought my bro two tennis tops.
And i'm being super nice 'cos i helped Win with a tennis top purchase at a staff discount rate.
Roland Garros. ( i had no idea it was a tournament's name!)
Like i said, i've been hanging out to wee hours.
Right now, i'm suffering from all the overhauls.
Headaches. Fever. Sore throat. Gastric. Tummyaches.
I've been wondering.
Thinking and pondering.
Brooding over the fact that i might turn lesbian one fine day.
Utterly, no joke. Serious.
I've been getting close enough. Probably i'm just being ultra sensitive.
Probably, i'm just being all-so-stupid-and-silly!
Today in school, VJ asked what's going on.
Yeah. I'll like to know that too. Don't interrogate me please!
I've no idea and i'm not interested.
Misleading? Tell me about it. (bAh!)
Spare me. We pretended that we didn't have the conversation afterwards.
Still, BIG thank you for photocopying your lab quizes.
Saved me a major big time.( I didn't copy k! I did my work!)
During Sports Bio today, busy having fun taking turns to take pictures with each other handphones.
MUAahhaa...shall post it up the next time!
And ShirL better not put freaking pics of me in her friendster.
So uGLY!!!! Take better ones lah!
I just discovered a drastically pathetic copycat.
I'm behaving my best to ignore your intrudence.
However, you're seemingly reaching for the undesired.
You wanna play, learn the rules.
I have all the time in world. Take your time to pick your play.
'Cos you and i, both(smiles.huh!), were never there in the first place.
Yesterday. Kinda felt messy and distrupted.
Perhaps i'm wrong. It's silly.
My heart thumping, each step i took.
From afar, i stood rooted.
As when i passed by, my mind went blank.
Not thinking. Can't feel.
You know....life's so unpredictable.
Especially, mine.
5/17/2006 01:02:00 AM
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