SHE
Aries. 22yrs. NP grad. Rugby,
Tennis, Running, (Sports).
Tempermental. Silly. Sensitive.
Loves Chocolate. My Friends.
Music. Hates Liars & Laziness
MOOD of da DAY:
CARES.
HATES.
MOOD.
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Friday, June 01, 2007
Backaching again.
From planting my fat ass right smack in front of the laptop for too long.
Sigh sigh sigh.
BUT!
I'm definitely much much better today.
Just a slight stuffy nose and alittle discomfort at the throat.
There's still blood in the phelgm though.
Hmm...but i'm so ready to hit the gym for a light workout.
It's time to fight fat and lose the extra weight that i've been gaining!
Hmmm....
I have been doing some self reflection about us.
Not that it's entirely that sad and bad.
It's just that what goes around, comes around...isn't it?
I spoiled our New Year's Day night by hooking up with a girl.
I'm sorry you had to witness this with jaws wide open.
It was really evil of me.
You tried to stop me, but i pushed you away.
It must have hurt quite abit.
I flirted openly with the bartender with you right beside me.
I'm wondering if you were too oblivious or just being cool.
ALL my friends are usually guys.
You've never complain. Not even once.
Tried making you jealous by dancing with others,
which you'll constantly turn me around towards you.
And, worst of all, there's something which you're unaware of.
I don't think you know. Cos i've hidden things from you.
Yes, i have done wrong.
While you were away, i was with her.
That was what happened.
But it ain't what it seems, cos there's more than what meets the eye.
As i felt you slipping away gradually, i decided to settle for another.
That's when i began to live in denial that our relationship was okay.
You never find out.
But a close call at the club, cos that's when you saw her sms.
You grabbed my mobile over and sent her a reply in your name.
That moment, i felt a sense of triumph and delight.
I'm damn evil. I know.
For having to derive pleasure from other people's miseries, i'm condemned.
Deep down, i only wished you could be more possessive towards me.
All i wanted was just to be yours.
I have never told a single soul, never spilled the beans to anyone.
Never knew that i would spit it all out here.
Perhaps, to move on, i have got to let it all go without holding back.
And with all these, i don't think i deserve you at all.
Now we all know why.....
Lúthien Ancalime ;
6/01/2007 11:13:00 AM
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